Sunday, November 5, 2006

it moved, I think...

Saturday night I was sitting on the couch watching tv with my hands laced behind my head.  It's a good stretch for those of us who need it.  I brought my arms down and swear I felt it move.  the expander.  yeowch!  Now I'm so sensitive I can't wear that little boob form at all.  Or my jog bra.  I have an appointment in the early a.m. so we'll see what he says.

The thermometer on the lanai (in the shade) says 88degrees.  It's at least 10 degrees hotter in the house.  I'm not quite sure how I'll ever manage to get in the Christmas spirit with these temperatures!!

At church today I realized that I am too focused on myself and my chest.  I haven't been reading my Bible like I should.  Haven't been in fellowship with God.  And I can tell in my interactions with my family.  I can also tell that I'm at great danger of becoming a hermit.  It is such a hassle to go anywhere.  I feel like I have to present myself as normal.  A two boobed woman.  But it's not comfortable to do that.  I'd rather stay home and be braless.  It's not comfortable to ride in a car.  The roads here are horrendous, by the way.  LOL!  I wonder if I'll be brave enough to buck conformity.  :-D  That makes me giggle just thinking about it.

Did I mention it's hot??  I'm sitting here at the pc, with a fan pointed at me, I haven't exerted any real energy at all today, and I'm sweating.  It's beading up and pouring off my face.  What a whiner. 

Gary is out bowling with the boys.  It's for cubscouts.  Mom and dad leave tomorrow late night.  Aughh!  I'll be on my own again!  In charge of everything!!  Laundry, food, school, cleaning...


mzgoochi said...

I had both my breast removed when I was 29. I'm 38 now and still not used to it.

Hope you get good news tomorrow.


nana0014 said...

Sorry you're having problems hope they can figure out something for you. I hate being hot I love snow.
Hope you have a great week.
Take care, Chrissie